The Phone Courtesan

Your First
November 28, 2010, 11:04 am
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Last week I attended a retirement/50th birthday party for a dear friend from junior high and high school. It was a joy seeing her again and it was awesome seeing many of our old friends from school. We have all grown up, have jobs, kids, grand kids, wives, husbands, divorces, sorrows and joys. It had been over 30 years since I had seen some of them. In every way, every single one of them was so beautiful.

There was one particular man there with his absolutely beautiful wife. He has made a very good life for himself and their family. We all hugged, talked and enjoyed our trips down memory lane. After a few drinks – he whispered in my ear that since I was his first, he wanted me to know that he Never forgot that. I was so touched. It made me blush. It’s funny – you wouldn’t believe the things I can talk about, and yet my own sexual experiences can make me blush. I have never understood that about myself. So to hear that for around a little more than 30 years later you find that you are a positive wonderful memory for someones first sexual experience, there are just no words to describe how it felt. I was honored to be held in such high regard and to always be a part of his sexual journey.

Our first is such a defining moment in our sexual journey. For good or bad, it is our sexual beginning.

So it got me thinking. Do we ever forget our first? Do you remember your first?

To the Geeks of the World
November 22, 2010, 12:01 pm
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I bow down to you!!!

A couple of weeks ago my computer acquired its first virus ever…and wow how that can mess with our technical/cyber worlds we have made for ourselves.

How a person can truly enjoy and want to be in front of a sick computer and work for hours to make it well . . . YOU Geeks are amazing. I have a new found respect for geeks.

And believe me, it is not in my nature to bow down to any one. = ))

The Big 5 0

Yes, I said it. The Big 5 0! That is me now. Saturday the 13th, I turned 50. I found approaching and turning 50 fascinating. I think I always thought of 50 as being ‘old’, and pretty close to being done with your life. Now that I am 50, that seems ridiculous. I do know I never want to go through my 20s ever again. In the beginning of adulthood there is so much to learn, decide and define about yourself. It was mid to late 30s that I really felt I was coming into my own. You know, that knowledge about yourself that you are finally secure in your own beliefs, thoughts, philosophies and that you can’t be easily persuaded by others thoughts and directions. The 40s – how liberating, or so I thought. But, it is the dawn of the 50s that I find I am even more aware. I have the confidence to know that what I feel or know, is definitely right for me. I have never been the type that wants to impart my beliefs on others, as the only way to be. And, I certainly hate having anyone force their beliefs on others.

I find am reveling in the world I have made. I gain such strength and confidence as a woman in this world of ours. I get to hear and learn of so many different thoughts, desires and fetishes. The eroticism and intimacy of that knowledge is so fucking hot to me. It is very empowering for me. I so love my work, and the fantasy worlds we can discover together. I know your secrets, and your fears. I am honored you trust me. In trusting me, I realize you have to surrender a part of yourself to me. I do know how hard that can be.

I have learned that there is no one way to have and enjoy sex. And that my dear in itself is a liberating thought. Why can’t ‘the majority’ get and accept that?

There are so many wonderful places that I get to go with you. You have all opened my sexual life. I am honored that I get to share with you your private journey. I learn so much from you.

If you can believe it, in my 20s I used to be so shy and so nervous about sex. But now, I am 50.

Thank you for going with me on my journey too.

“Don’t worry, it only seems kinky the first time.”
November 11, 2010, 1:55 pm
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This makes me smile.